chaze’s CRIB

if i have a power… one kind of power… i would choose to be a person who can time travel. not that i’m not happy with how my life is going on but i just want to fix some things. things that probably could spell a difference in my lucid life.

i would go back last week. i would erase the time when i read all the messages that i wrote five years ago. i would delete everything. i wouldn’t enrolled in the unlimited service of the telecom that i have. i wouldn’t be jumping to conclusions and impulsive…. i wouldn’t say i love you. i wouldn’t say i can’t live without you…. and lastly…. i WOULDN’T CALL THAT PERSON JUST TO HEAR THE WORDS LET’S JUST BE FRIENDS.

or better yet…. i’ll go back five years ago.

i’ll be better. i’d like everything to be erased. i want that person completely out of my system. i don’t want to remember. i don’t want to feel. i don’t want to fall… and lastly, i don’t want to cry anymore….

or ………

should i just be a little bit thinking this thing wouldn’t happen at all.

i should’ve just saved my face and the little dignity and sensibility i have. i should’ve just let go of the facts and all…. i should’ve just………. LET GO….

and right now….

the only thing left for me is to succumb to the pain without anyone comforting me….

i resist… i don’t want any endearments. it sucks… it’s not worth it….

i don’t want to do it again. and i don’t want to fall for that again….

i’m going on… im moving on….

pain is there and healing is a must……

living is good, by dying is better….

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